Wednesday, October 05, 2005

Today's baobei laogong's big day...The day his mum brought him to earth...
Baobei' s 27 le..Hmm..An age tat's nt too old nor too young for me..
He's matured - thoughts n actions, though sometimes he's my big baby...Heehee (^_^)
He's charming, suave n most important of all, He Loves me Lots..!
There's so much good things abt him to 'sing' abt, such as his intelligence n thoughts..
Okay okay..enough of my 'singing' ..back to the subject..

Had a very simple but heart-warming celebration wif laogong..
Mummy n Daddy had whipped up several dishes which laogong love - namely Tom Yum Soup, fried chicken wings n abalone wif spinach.
As for me...I had lied (yes..a white lie) to baobei saying tat I had tuition till 9.30pm tonite..
And he really thought so, thus making my plan succeed.
Anyway, Pj n I had planned n implemented the following:

1. Tricked baobei into thinking tat I wont be celebrating his special day due to tuition classes.
2. Pj went to Jurong East - PrimaDeli to buy the bday cake n reached hm b4 laogong came back frm work.
3. Hid in the bedrm wif the bday cake to surprise laogong when he come in to change.

Result?

Heehee.. (>_<) My plan succeeded as I've said it earlier on... Laogong was so shocked n surprised to see me when he came into the rm... He came into the rm only to see her baobei laopo sitting on the bed wif her sis, wif the bday cake lighted wif candles. Pj sang an english n mandarian version of the bday song. Laogong was so happy tat he was loss for words..He cld only keep smiling. (^_^) Had a wonderful dinner..Then slacked ard wif baobei.. Well, tat's all for baobei's bday celebration. It may be simple but the level of heart-warming feeling cant be found while celebrating outside..why? maybe becos of the environment? (-_-?)

Hmm..now back to me.. My day was fine...tuition classes in the morning n afternoon...Still nt very energetic but had looked forward to returning hm to prepare for the surprise for baobei.

Had a short chat wif an old fren..an ex to be exact...He's really sweet...I nicknamed him 'Sweetie Pie'...Ya..I knw...I'm married..But the nickname was given last time...And he's really sweet thus I continue to call him tat till nw.. Anyway, we chatted for a while..and though it's been a long time since we last met (we do chat on msn @ times though..) He's sweet enough to offer to help me find sth - a Winnie the Pooh bathrm scale..Someone (I mistrusted) had told me a few days b4 tat he lost my scale. I felt really terrible @ tat time cos tat scale was the last in SG...and it was bought when I was still in sch whereby my allowances were limited...I had scrimped n saved to buy tat precious scale..

Well, back to Sweetie Pie, like I mentioned, he offered to find the scale for me...I actually do miss him quite much as a very gd buddy, nth more...He's really sweet n there's a kind of close feeling when i talk to him...But that's all..nth more..I had been quite depressed when he shun me for quite some time back..was really depressing...But how many exs wld keep in contact wif their exs and still be so sweet to them?? He's really a nice guy, just tat I didn't knw hw to appreciate him..didn't treasure him... I'm lucky to find my Mr Right - my baobei laogong...And I sincerely hope tat he wld soon find his perfect other half too...

Oh ya..b4 I forget..My latest possession! Samsung MP3 player - YH-J70SW.. I love it very much! Mummy got it for me... (>_<)


Mine is in white. I love the features n the user-friendliness. Love mummy lots!! (hey, I'll still love her lots even if she didn't get me this player...)

Had d/l my favourites songs into the player this evening while waiting for baobei to come hm. I shall no longer be bored on the trips to n fro tuition classes.. (^_^) Yippi!!!

Baobei's tired le..
Gonna go accompany my baobei to dreamland.
Nitez everyone!

Lastly, to my baobei (again),
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST BAOBEI!!!

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FishyLittleMousey winks
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
MY DEAR DARLING BAOBEI LAOGONG!!!

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FishyLittleMousey winks
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Sunday, October 02, 2005

She used to be:
- childish
- no much sense of responsibility
- no sense of priority
- no much sense of judgement
In short, she was nothing..just a rebellious, iresponsible girl who does not prioritize nor think of consequences before she act.

That was before...

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After much thoughts ( and I really mean MUCH thoughts...) I've finally set my decision:
I will NOT be celebrating my 21st bday.

It's nt tat I dun hv the money to hold a celebration...In fact, I've got the amt of $ set aside for it...plus some cash presents which my bros hv decided to give me...The amt is sufficient for ard 30 ppl dinner @ a good restaurant. However, I've decided to forgo the cash presents as well as my bday celebration.

Yes..I knw...everyone, esp a girl, has only one 21st...But i think the reasons behind my decision wld be even more meaningful to me as well as the ppl ard me, than the bday dinner tat was initially planned.

My reasons:
1. Being 21 means I'm nw an adult, thus I shld nt be behaving childishly like what I did in the past. (Honestly, I dun think I can be matured @ all times, but this only applies to behavior. I might still throw "xiao jie pi qi" @ times, but my thinking wld nt change. The essential level of maturity will always remain or increase as time pass. There'll always be a kid in me - to keep myself young n cheerful @ heart..so please bear wif the 'kidish' fishylittlemousey. Maturity will be shown @ appropriate times.)

2. I wld like to take this opportunity to make my baobei, my family n my bros + sis proud.

3. I think the amt of $ spent on my bday could be more wisely used on other areas.

*"Ben Kor, I dun mean tat ur idea is nt gd,..just tat after so many things had happened recently tat I decided tat I shld be more sensible n prioritize things."*

4. Being the eldest in the family, being a wife, being a sister of the few guys (Ben, Quan, Ken n Tony), I think I shld start to act my age.

So, I've decided tat...Instead of ppl celebrating my bday for me - spending $ n giving me presents, I've got a present for all of them.

For my bros + sis (Ben, Quan, Ken, Tony n Ching):
The present is nt a physical one...But I'm sure tat you'll all be proud of my decision.

For my parents:
I'm gonna give the amt of $$$ set aside for my bday to them. Although it's nt much to them, but tat's the most I can do for nw..

I'm nt a person who can save $$$. But since young, I've been taught to use $$$ wisely...I've been trained to use money wisely - $50/wk during sec sch days for transport, food, outings wif friends and anything tat I wanna buy. No extra money given.
However, I nv learnt how to save cos I nv had any $ left.

Nw tat I'm gonna be 21, I need to start to learn to save so tat I can plan further for my baobei n myself - our future n future kids (^_^)

But for the time being, I'm just gonna prioritize my spending.

Disappointment n sadness...YES..They exist in my heart..However, I made this decision on my own, under no influence of anyone, AND I'm gonna stick to it!
I wld be lying to everyone if I wrote in this blog wif no sadness n disappointment. In fact, I am quite disappointed cos I've waited years for myself to reach this age of 21. Mum had told me b4 tat she wld organize a grand celebration for my 21st bday. But tat was 5 years ago..Now..due to some difficulties, it can't be fulfilled. But she's still trying hard to fulfill the promise as much as possible.

It hurts to see my dearest mum to slog so hard n spend those hard-earned $ on the bday of her daughter - who had been rebellious, insensible, irresponsible for her actions and immatured.
I wld rather use that $ to help dad or maybe put aside for 'rainy' days.

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Some ppl may read this blog may think n hv some negative comments of me trying to show off, gain sympathy or any other negative things...
But I can tell these ppl...NO..I'm Not..
I'm writing all these becos:

1. I dunno hw to explain to my dear bros n sis face-to-face, abt my decision, esp Ben Kor who has taken painstaken efforts to help me plan a grand bday celebration which involves everyone closest to me.

2. I wanna get this off my chest so tat I won't be so bothered by my disappointment n sadness. (I've already cried my heart out this afternoon while telling baobei this decision of mine.)

3. This blog is mine..A place where I can say watever tat can't be said in person.

In summary, the best present for my 21st bday wld be that everyone whom I knw n love are living in happiness. (^_^)

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