Friday, September 30, 2005

Many tuition classes + Long day = Tiredness = No blog

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FishyLittleMousey winks
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Thursday, September 22, 2005

After some thoughts..This occurred to me:

IF
Life is full of IFs...
Everyday, there wld b at least one person asking..
"What IF...??"
"IF I had done tat..."
Becos of regrets, the no. of IF questions grow..
Wld there b a day where there r no more IFs?? No more regrets??

I'll nv ask myself:"Wat IF I had nt married my husband?? Wat wld hv happened instead??"

I wld nv say:"IF only I hadn't married so young...IF only I had done this or that.."

Why?

Becos I love my husband more than anything else in the world..no matter wat happens now or in future..I'll nv hv regrets for marrying to my husband nor for regretting to marry so young of age.

I may be pissed off or disappointed as indicated in my previous blog or so..But it'll nv put me into a stage whereby I wld question myself wif "IFs"...

Anger, disappointment, sadness, and all other negative emotions wld nv..nv make me regret marrying him..Never..
Be it tat I am to the extreme of the above-mentioned emotions,..nothing wld ever make me change my stand in this.

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FishyLittleMousey winks
at |11:40 PM|

Sorry everyone..Haven been blogging lately cos very tired frm tuition..

As usual, my tuition classes had been packed frm early morning till late night...Plus being sick - ya..my usual stupid prob..

Nt being able to blog..everything's bottled up inside..both happy n unhappy stuff...Hiaz...

Some updates:

17 Sep
- My dear xiao nan ren 2's bday...Our dear sweet little Jiesi had organized n prepared a special surprise celebration for the bday boy...

- Unfortunately, I was unable to attend the gathering cum celebration cos hv to accompany my laogong to go JB to refill fuel...(those who drive or ride motorbikes, such as SX wld knw y...)

- Had went shopping for movies, drama serials n mooncakes...Ya mooncakes cos its Mooncake Festival on Sunday (18 Sep 2005)

- Met Ah Keong for dinner ard 8 plus 9...Finished dinner n came back hm..Reached hm ard 1 plus..


18 Sep
- went back to in-law's place to pass them the mooncakes n to celebrate the festival wif them(sort-of)

- Pa (baobei's father) had actually planned to bring Ma out for dinner...Thus, dinner was on Pa @ Toa Payoh..the food @ the place was okay...Had curry fish head, sambal kangkong, cereal prawns n lastly iron-plate beancurd..

- Came back hm to watch 'Interview with the Vampire-Part 3'...Ya..we bought the serial..Quite nice actually..

Today
- nt feeling very well - emotionally n physically..y? I dunno..seems like sth is missing..

- realized tat some students had improve while some deteriorated..I dunno y...dun ask me..

Nt in the mood today to blog much..The remaining wld be just some let-offs frm my mind..

This is meant to be for no one else but HIM...but then again..when does he actually read my blog??? But nvm...shuan le..this is life..never ask for too much... :(

"Negligence is wat I'm experiencing..
For the past one wk...it's been TV, computer, TV, computer...
Except for the times when u pick me up frm tuition...
Work is important, so is career..
I understand ur eagerness n needs to succeed in life..
But hv u forgotten ur promise??
Where has tat gone to??
Where the "I promise to accompany u when I'm free..I promise to accompany when I come hm frm work n nt bring work hm.."
Where has it gone to??
I knw the drama is interesting..it has captivate u just like it has captivate me..
But ur work??

I'm tired frm a day's work...so are u..
All I wan n look forward to everyday is to see u...waiting for u to accompany me..
But all I hv is ur physical body..
Where's ur heart?? Where's ur soul??
It feels as if I've only gotten an empty shell beside me..
There's no warmth..no closeness..."

All I wan is YOU...
Nt just an empty shell..
I'm afraid..
I'm afraid of loneliness..
No one's there...No one..Nt even you...
I dun feel you...I dun feel anyone with me..

Sth's missing..I dunno wat... (-_-")

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FishyLittleMousey winks
at |10:28 PM|

Saturday, September 17, 2005

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!@ My Dear Xiao Nan Ren 2 - WINSTON!!!

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FishyLittleMousey winks
at |3:10 AM|

Friday, September 02, 2005

I just received a Teachers' Day present frm my latest student..Actually it was already given to me yesterday..But forgetful me had misplaced it @ her place n didn't bring it hm...Just nw went for her tuition then got it back...

I'm surprised by the present her mum had bought for me...It's a frangrance frm Body Shop..Very nice-smelling n sweet... Stuff frm Body Shop r nt very cheap lor..Lucky me..!

Had forgotten to mention my dear student (the one who gave me the present) who had visited my place yesterday..She came over to play wif my bro n watch Charlie n the Chocolate Factory...She's very pitiful..very lonely too, as she is the only child n no one @ hm plays wif her...

This student, Joye, she very close to me, although I've only taught her for ard 3 wks.. She's the only student who so close to me..She opens the door n welcomes me happily every tuition lesson..After which she wld give me a hug b4 going into the study rm...In short, she's adorable!

I wish all my students were like that..But thinking again, I still like the present situation cos if all my students were like Joye, then I'd be a very busy tutor..Heehee...Nevertheless, I like all my students very much...and it feels very gd when their parents tell me tat their child or children hv improved...There's a sense of achievement in me...n makes me feel tat: Yes, I'm able to help the child...I'm nt tat useless afterall..

Close friends n Baobei wld knw why I made such a comment above...
I've always felt tat I'm useless..becos it's been implanted in me since I was young by my mum...
My sis n bro r both clever..gd in studies...only me...
But it's okay for me nw...My sentiments hv changed...After giving tuition n seeing tat my students do improve, makes me feel tat I'm useful - I've gt at least some talent in me..

Baobei is always telling me tat I've got my gd pts n talents..just tat some ppl n myself cant see it yet...In time to come, I shall realize my potential n talents n become a very useful person...

A happily married couple:
To Baobei, I'll always be the best laopo in the world, even though I can b wildful n unreasonable @ times...And to me, my baobei wld forever be the best laogong in the world... (>_<)
Our feelings for each other wld only grow stronger as each day pass.

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FishyLittleMousey winks
at |1:33 PM|

Hv been very busy wif tuition lately..everyday's schedule was packed like nobody's biz..No choice..had to make up for the days of tuition missed during exam period..

So tired..so tired.. (-_-")

Anyway..a brief update of happenings within this wk:

Had dinner wif Ah Keong last weekend..Supposedly to hv Xiao Nan Ren n Caiying wif us but later due to unsuitable schedule n the very tired Xiao Nan Ren...
Helped dad (my father-in-law) moved some things frm ma's condo back to dad's place..

Monday to Wednesday..nothing much..but at least got a few things for me to mention here..
(^_^)

1. Received a teachers' day card frm one of my students..

2. went shopping for lingerie wif baobei...saw a set (includes night gown - promotion) but too bad..my size got no more stock le..so most probably wld go back again in a few days time to check again..

3. went hypermarket @ IMM wif laogong, mummy n little terrorist..Bought lots of things..wanted to use the word "tons" but a bit exaggerating so...
Anyway..bought plenty of tibits..now our tibits cabinet is full of tibits, sweets, chocolates n drinks! Laogong also bought a pair of Poohbear paper laterns for me n ah boy.. So sweet right? (>_<) Okay..now gonna blog abt today.. 1 September 2005 - Teachers' Day Firstly, HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY to all teachers in the world, especially to Mdm Yap - my pri sch chinese teacher who had given n taught me so much during those years of education, and my teachers frm ITE Clementi.

Next, thanks to my students who had bought me presents n hand-made cards on this special day..

Today's laogong's first day @ work..Feedback?
Not bad..He had spent his whole day installing his office PC...Relaxz right?

Laogong's ex colleague, Zhihao, his mum passed away due to cancer..Poor him..Attended his mum's funeral @ Sengkang straight after tuition...Then rushed back to Westmall to watch Herbie wif PJ...

Abt the movie Herbie, it's funny n very nice..cos got car racing...I love car racing!! so does baobei..Had been worried tat he might nt enjoy the movie but fortunately, he did!! We (me, baobei n PJ) loved the car Herbie..it was so adorable..wonder if such cars really exists in this world..If there is, I might consider getting myself one.. (^_^)

Oh ya, there's an interesting korean drama series on Channel U every monday n tuesday night @ 10pm - Stairway to Heaven ... Heehee..Laogong bought that set of drama series for me n mummy during our IMM trip..Nice hor? Heehee.. I hv a great n wonderous Baobei Laogong!!! (^_^)

Gonna go 'chase' the drama series le...heehee.. (>_<)

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FishyLittleMousey winks
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