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*the man * # Brandon
# reaching 28 yrs old soon
# happily married
# a happy father
# bday on 05 October

*he loves * # her
# pampering n 'sayanging' her
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# their precious son - Joshua

*his wishlist * :: baby to be well n healthy ::
:: to earn more money ::
:: more time to accompany baobei laopo n baby ::

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*the lady * # Natalie
# reaching 22 yrs old soon
# happily married
# a happy mother
# bday on 18 November

*she loves * # him
# pampering n 'sayanging' laogong
# anything to do with him
# their precious son - Joshua

*her wishlist * :: laogong n everyone I knw to be always happy ::
:: baby to be well n healthy ::
:: baobei's wishes to come true ::

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Monday, July 25, 2005

I feel that I'm a loser..a very bad n useless girl..

I just read a best friend's blog (best friend = I feel that she's my best friend..)
I read that she attended a friend's bday party @ SengKang...
After reading..I was wondering...which is a bigger issue? Birthday or wedding??

She did not attend my wedding..not the solemnization ceremony nor the bbq that nite...
She told me it was too far for her...isn't Sengkang far as well?? She said so in her blog.."why u live so far, girl?" something like that..

She's suppose to be my best friend...My big day...she wasn't there...no greetings nor congrats frm her..not on that day nor till now...

Am I a failure or what??

It hurts...it really hurts..

I had really considered @ tat time that the place was really too far for her n that she needs to work the next day..But now..I'm wondering...Am I so insignificant to her...to all my friends??

Is it becos I'm married, thus everyone feels that they cant click with me anymore?? Is it becos they feel that a married person cant have friends??

I still have a life..I still can have friends..My laogong does not restrict such things...

BUT...

A best friend..known for 9 years,..best friends for 6 years...

I'm disappointed n hurt...

I'm not being persistent..not being annoying..not being unable to put down the past...does anyone out there knw exactly how it feels?? Your best friend, not @ ur wedding..not a word of congrats or anything...Even my once (why once? it's due to some lost contact between the yrs) best friend - Pamela...who wasn't able to attend my wedding due to work, had made a call especially to me,..she calculated the timing and called me right after my solemnization ended...

No words can describe the thrudding pain in my heart now..

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FishyLittleMousey winks
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